A Punctuation Paradigm

It was the French poet Charles Baudelaire who first said that the devil’s greatest trick is to make you believe that he doesn’t exist. This statement proved to be true in my life. For many years, I lived with a voice in my head that wasn’t my own. The only thing is, I didn’t realise that it belonged to an enemy.

‘Experience’ teaches us all sorts of things about ourselves, that may appear valid but aren’t really true. However, you have to look really close before you can see the subtle threads of deceit that is woven in with truth.

The enemy doesn’t necessarily disagree with what God says about us; he just changes the punctuation. I have noticed that it is possible to walk around for days with a question mark on my heart where there should have been an exclamation mark.

“Did God really say…
I am chosen?
I am forgiven?
I am healed?
I am free?
I am…?”

That is why we need to check our hearts for question marks every day; and when we find them, we have to bend them back into the punctuation marks that God intended for us. It’s time to stop allowing the enemy to write question marks over who God says we are and what He has called us to do.

“A thief has only one thing in mind—he wants to steal, slaughter, and destroy. But I have come to give you everything in abundance, more than you expect—life in its fullness until you overflow!”
John 10:10 TPT

The agenda of the enemy is clear and in stark contrast with God’s heart for us. This is not groundbreaking revelation; but have you even wondered why he is after your heart?

In his book, ‘Waking the Dead’, John Eldredge writes: “The story of your life is the story of the long and brutal assault on your heart by the one who knows what you could be and fears it.” Just because the enemy has changed the punctuation on your heart doesn’t mean he isn’t shaking in his boots. Those question marks do not change who you are one iota, they only keep you in the dark.

You see, it’s not the enemy who needs to be convinced about who you are and what you carry. It’s YOU. (Me too!)

Dear friend, you need to change those question marks back into exclamation marks. You have every right to do so. There is no need to second-guess how the Father feels about you. He has made it pretty clear. He gave everything for you. In His eyes you are…


No question about it.

Make this your declaration today:

“I am completely loved by God and He is fully pleased with me. I am a force to be reckoned with, because His Spirit lives in me. God gives me everything I need in abundance, more than I can expect.”


Heavenly Father,

We thank you for the truth that you have spoken over our hearts. Help us, Holy Spirit to identify and eliminate the question marks that want to keep us wondering who we truly are.

We choose to believe who you say we are and we say yes to what you have called us to do.

In Jesus Name


Heart Print:

Today I hear the Father say: “Powerful Child. Do not question the value or the potency of the content because the jar is fragile. What you carry is of great significance and importance in my Kingdom. Every yes you offer to me in worship, causes great impact with a ripple effect that you may not even perceive. There is no act too small to make a difference. Pennies count when you give them with all your heart. Every act is noted. Nothing unseen. And I have blessed them all.” ❤

Tap to play

This morning, as I sipped my coffee in bed (thank you, husband), I was scrolling down the newsfeed on my favourite social media app. Over the years I have noticed such an interesting phenomenon, one which I have dipped into every now and again as curiosity got the better of me.

There seems to be an increase in people playing this one particular game that tells them who they are based on their favourite movie character, their profile pictures, the colors they choose and many other themes. People want to know what animal they are most like or what Disney princess embodies their personality.

Why is this app so popular? I believe there is a hunger in every human heart to find out who they really are. Some kind of stirring that we all feel to some degree, hinting to the fact that there is more to us than what we have uncovered. It’s great to be able to discover our significance at the tap of a screen, but the truth is that we will need to venture a little further into realms of the unseen, if we want to discover who we truly are.

“I will give thanks and praise to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.”

Psalm 139:14 AMP

There is only one place we can go to find our true identity; into the arms of the One who created us. The One who knitted us together in our mother’s womb, according to His design and purpose for our life. Think about it… everything you need to fulfill His plan for your life, has been wired into your very being.

As I studied this verse this morning, looking at the rich meaning of each word in it’s original language and context, I realised that I have very little understanding of who I really am. How do I know this? Because I have forgotten to marvel at the workmanship. I have been satisfied by the “tap to play” button on the screen of my smartphone rather than tapping on the heart of the One who made me. The One who wants me to discover my true identity and the glorious purpose for which He designed me.

Let’s not forget to marvel at the masterpieces we are, but let us behold the One who will show us exactly who we are. As we look deeper into the mirror of the Word, we will find ourselves in the resounding truth that we have been fearfully and wonderfully created, in the image of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. We will discover that we have been positioned in this time and in this place, for a specific purpose. May we tap into the heart of the Fathers, so that we can play the part that we were created for.

Make this your declaration today:

“God, I praise you for I am truly a masterpiece. You have done a marvelous work in me and I will live to bring glory to you.”


Heavenly Father,

Thank you that we don’t have to rely on the world to show us or tell us who we are. Help us to focus on your Words of truth. Show us your glory Lord, until we can see ourselves the way you see us. Until we believe that we are who You say we are: Strong. Free. Overcoming. Bold. Loved.

In Jesus Name!


Heart Print:

Today I hear the Father say: “Precious One. Do not forget that I rejoice over you with singing. Do not forget that you are my delight. You are not a burden to bear. You are one that brings great joy to my heart. When the battle is raging, you need to guard your heart with this: I will never stop rejoicing over you. My victorious banner over you is Love. It is finished.” ❤

Two Kings

Once upon a time, there were two kings. Both were chosen by God to rule and reign over His people. Both were anointed to do so. One fell away from God and the other one (though imperfectly) fulfilled his assignment and remained in right standing with God.

I’m sure you by now you know who I am talking about; the first and second kings of Israel, Saul and David. When you study the lives of these two kings, you find that they had some things in common. God must have seen great potential in both of them, after all, He looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7) and he chose Saul first.

They both had significant callings. You can read about Saul’s experience in 1 Samuel 9 and David’s experience in 1 Samuel 16. They were both anointed for their assignment by the prophet Samuel. What was it that made the difference in the way they finished their race?

I’m sure you can find many differences in their relationship with God and in the way they ruled the kingdom. But there is one thing I would like to draw attention to and it might surprise you. It certainly amazed me when I saw it.

In 1 Samuel 10, after a bizarre string of events (involving donkeys and prophets), Saul returns to his homeland to wait for the arrival of Samuel to appoint him as king and announce it to the people. But when Samuel arrived, Saul was nowhere to be found. The funny thing is, you can hide from everyone, but you can’t hide from God. Verse 22:

So they asked the Lord, “Where is he?”
And the Lord replied, “He is hiding among the baggage.”

Fast forward a few chapters and we find the young boy David, who has been anointed as future king, but is still working in the field herding his father’s sheep. In 1 Samuel 17 we read that his father sent him to battle with food for his brothers. As David arrives at the camp, the army is going out to battle. What happens next, propels David into an eternal moment, that would forever mark his life. Verse 22:

Then David left his baggage in the care of the baggage keeper, and ran to the battle line and entered in order to greet his brothers.” (NASB)

One king hides behind the baggage, the other one drops his baggage and runs towards the battlefield. As I looked at these verses, I felt a nudge by the Holy Spirit to look at this one thing that separated these two kings: the way they handled their baggage.

Being made alive in Christ has put us in a very significant assignment. Romans 5:17 says that we are now appointed to rule and reign with Christ, in THIS life. We have been chosen to fulfill an assignment that was prepared for us, even before we were born (Ephesians 2:10) and we are anointed (1 John 2:27). The question is, what do we do with your baggage?

Will we continue to hide behind it, afraid to be seen? Afraid to take the place that God has prepared for us? Or do we drop those heavy loads and run towards the battlefield? That assignment that will mark us for eternity?

Today, I am really challenged by this. There are some heavy stuff I have been carrying for far too long and it has become tempting to hide behind those issues that seem to disqualify me for my assignment. Being seen invites criticism. Taking up the position that God has prepared for you will cost you your comfort. But the prize is only won by those who finish their race.

And He is worth the discomfort.

King David can testify to this.

I pray that we will have the courage to let go. Let go of every sin that so easily entangles us. Let go of all the baggage that is slowing us down. May we all be blessed today, with patient endurance and find the joy set before us: the One who called us by name and gave us the authority to rule and reign with Him.



Today, I hear the Father say: “Fiery One! Keep burning for me. Let my love rise up within you with every step you take towards the battlefield. I have called you to be victorious. Do not look back. The race is not to the swift. The battle is not to the strong. It is not by might or power, but by my Spirit. So keep moving forward, my darling. You were fashioned for freedom.” ❤

Those who trust

Do you trust God?

How would you answer this question? For many years I genuinely thought I did, but one day as I prepared to deliver a Leadership course on cultivating trust with the members of your team, I realised that what I thought was trust, was only really respect. It wasn’t trust at all.

As I paged through The Leadership Handbook (by Peter Scholtes) I came across a diagram that explained that in order to build trust with the members of your team, you needed to demonstrate both competency and care; team members need to know that their leader is both capable to deliver results, whilst at the same time caring about their individual welfare.

If a team leader scored high on caring but low on competency, team members would feel a great deal of affection towards them, but they wouldn’t necessarily trust that leader. Leaders who score high on competency but low on caring are often highly respected, but not actually trusted.

As I studied that leadership model, the Holy Spirit arrested me. In His gentle way, He pointed out to me that I believed that God was competent, but I didn’t quite believe that He cared. I knew He could do the impossible, I just wasn’t sure that He wanted to do it for me. I didn’t believe that He truly cared.

Galatians 5:6 in the Amplified Classic says that our faith is activated, energised and working through love. It is the revelation of the love of God that adds the power to our words and actions. It was the caring element, that I was missing. And it affected my faith… not in a good way.

According to the Google dictionary, trust (as a verb) is defined as “believing in the reliability, truth or ability of something or someone…” other words that are linked to trust is “faith”, “confidence” and “hope”. We cannot have faith in God without trust. Trust comes when we believe that God is both able and willing to do the impossible for us and through us; because He can AND because He wants to; because He loves us!

I want to be one of those who truly trusts in the Lord:

  • They are like mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever (Psalm 125:1 NIV)
  • They will never be disgraced (Romans 10:11 NLT)
  • They find new strength (Isaiah 40:31 NLT)
  • They lack no good thing (Psalm 34:10 NLT)
  • They always produce fruit, even when times are tough (Jeremiah 17:7-8)

Dear friend, do you believe that God wants to do the impossible for you? Maybe you need healing, deliverance, provision or restoration today. Can I encourage you to do a heart-check? It’s easy to believe that God is able to do the impossible, it’s a little more tricky to be confident that He has your total wellbeing in mind. That He loves you and that He is not just able to save, but so willing.

I pray that during this coming week, you will encounter His heart for you. And that you will have a fresh revelation of His marvelous love. May you have a powerful experience of His loving kindness and tender mercies. May you hear His words of love pour into your soul, like a rushing wave. May it activate and energise your faith. May you see that mountain melt like wax in the presence of the Lord. May His mighty love burn brightly in you.

In Jesus Name.



Today, I hear the Father say: “Unshakable One. Stand your ground. Don’t look to the left or the right. Don’t be intimidated by the winds that would try to uproot you. You are ingrafted in me. My Spirit-life runs through your veins. Nothing can separate you from my love. You, my love, are deeply loved.” ❤

Fresh focus

When I tuck my children into bed at night, I often encourage them to imagine what heaven is like. One evening, I asked my daughter to tell me what she pictured. When I asked her about what she thinks God the Father is like, she hesitated. She said: “Mum, I watched this video on YouTube where these kids made a cartoon character about God, and it wasn’t very nice. Now, when I go to sleep and I imagine God, I can’t get that image out of my head.”

Resisting the urge to say “I told you not to watch that stuff!”, I felt the Holy Spirit gently nudging me to give her a new image. I told her how, when she was a little baby, I really had a hard time with my mind and my emotions. I shared with her, how I grew up hearing that God loved me, but not really believing that I was deserving of that love.

Then one day, I went to the cinema to watch a Disney movie called, Tangled. I saw a King who was deeply moved for his daughter. You see, only a short while after she was born, a wicked old lady took her from the Kingdom and locked her in a tower, but her father never gave up celebrating her. Every year on her birthday, he sent out lanterns. Those lanterns would one day, lead her back home.

“When I think about the Father,” I told my (then) 9-year-old daughter, “I think about that king in Tangled. I see the tear rolling down his cheek before he lights that first lantern on Rapunzel’s birthday. I see the love in His eyes, when his lost daughter returns. Maybe you could use that image, Zoë?”

“Wow, Mum!” she said, “you got all that from a movie?”

Yes! God speaks through movies. He speaks to us all the time, if we just open our hearts to receive what He has for us. If we would just turn our attention to His voice, we will hear Him tell us how much we are treasured and loved.

We all need a new image of the Father. There is always more of His heart to discover. It feels a little strange that it took a trip to the cinema to correct my image of the Father. It took a fairy tale to bring His heart into focus, but that image needs to be refreshed every day.

The enemy loves to add a little filter to distort what we see, just enough to get us to question the Father’s heart towards us. “Did God really say?” is the oldest trick in the book. “He’s keeping you from all the good stuff…” is another filter that he likes to use.

A heart that questions the love of the Father is a tangled heart. A tangled heart is unable to function in the way that it was created to function. There is a reason why the enemy wants to skew your vision of the Father. There is a reason why he wants to keep your heart tangled.

Your heart is significant.

That is why you have to guard it above all (Proverbs 4:23). Guard your heart by keeping the image of your Father into focus. Do not allow circumstances to lay a filter over your picture of His heart for you. Do not entertain the lies that are writing question marks over His love for you.

He who did not spare [even] His own Son, but gave Him up for us all, how will He not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things?”
Romans 8:32 AMP

Dear friend, the Father gave up His greatest Treasure, to win back your heart. He did it because He loves you and because your heart was worth the sacrifice. Your heart is significant and priceless. He is not withholding anything from you; in Jesus, He has provided everything you could ever need. Healing. Deliverance. Freedom. Provision. Restoration.

It’s time to get a fresh image of the Father. To focus on His perfect, limitless love for you.

It’s time to get your heart untangled.


Today, I hear the Father say: “Glorious Child. I am patiently waiting for you to adjust your vision. The more of my heart you see, the sharper the view of your world will be. There are no limitations when your eyes are fixed on me. When you follow where I lead. Do not lose sight of my heart. Stay close as you keep in step with each beat. You are my joy and my greatest delight. My pearl of great price.” ❤

Storms and Strongholds

There is nothing like a little bit of turbulence to reveal what is happening in the heart. Imagine being in a boat with the Son of God, when suddenly a fierce windstorm starts to give it a little rock. Then it rocks a little more. Water starts seeping into your boat and you’re looking for Jesus. Where is He? We need a miracle here!

How do you respond?

“Teacher, do You not care that we are about to die?” (Mark 4:38) This is the reaction from the men that had been following Jesus for months on end. They had just spent the entire day, listening to them teach about the condition of their hearts. About the importance to allow the seed of the Word to grow deep roots. About how the birds of the air will come after the seed.

Jesus explained that the enemy also comes after the Word that is sown into our hearts. So there they are, moments after they received this incredible teaching and a storm breaks out. Coincidence? Hmm…

Before they woke Jesus up from His restful slumber, they had already decided the outcome: “we are about to die…” Wow! Perhaps they were tired or hungry or hangry, but that seems to be a little dramatic considering that the Son of God is in your boat. Then there’s also the accusation preceding that statement: “…do You not care…?”

How do you react when your boat is being rocked? What is your first response? Do you have a little trigger? That can often help us to identify if we are stuck in a stronghold of unbelief. Personally, I am in no place to judge the response of the disciples, because for so many years I defaulted to “…do You not care, Lord? Can you not see my struggle?”

I didn’t realise that my response (my trigger) was pointing me to the unbelief that was keeping me bound and confined. I was blaming God when all the while, His heart was for me to live free and limitless. A life where everything is possible with Him. A life where I can rise up in Christ and calm the storm with the authority I have been given in Him.

My stronghold was built over many years as the enemy used different experiences to show me that God wasn’t there for me; or if He was, He didn’t care. Why would He care about me, anyway? I wasn’t good enough. Lie upon lie, I built that tower until it felt impossible to believe that God would come through for me. I believed that God was able, but I couldn’t see that He was willing.

That is exactly where the enemy wants us. Have you often found that it is easy to believe that God is able to do all things for everyone, but when it comes to your problems, you find it difficult to believe? You can pray and have faith for others, but you feel awkward when you are praying for your own breakthrough? You might be dealing with a stronghold.

When we can align our hearts with the love of the Father, our faith is activated (Galatians 5:6 AMP). That is why the enemy benefits from us questioning God’s heart towards us. It disempowers us.

Dear friend, it’s time to realise that you are not waiting for Jesus to wake up to your struggle. He is not only with you in your boat, but His life-giving Spirit is alive in you (Romans 8:11). He has given you the authority over all the power of the enemy (Luke 10:19). It’s time for you to rise up and tell that storm to quiet down!

He cares. If you want your faith to be effective, you have to believe it.

Make this your meditation and declaration this week:

“I choose to cast all my cares, my worries, my anxiety, my fears on Him, because HE CARES FOR ME!” (1 Peter 5:7)

Shout it at the storm! It will quiet down. And your stronghold will start tumbling.


Today I hear the Father say: “Bold One! My heart delights as you take that hammer to the wall of unbelief. Let my Word break up all the hard places of your heart. With every blow of truth, my love will rush in to fill all the empty spaces. Let my powerful love for you ignite your faith. For you are like me, mighty child: Strong. Overcoming. Soaring. Let’s rise!” ❤


The UK is not known for it’s frequent thunder storms. Last night, only minutes after we tucked our kids into bed, they came running into our room, worried about the thunder they were hearing outside. Wanting nothing more than to get some sleep, my first response was: “Don’t be silly, it’s only thunder,” but then I realised that this is not something that they are used to.

This Mamma is very used to the spectacular thunder storms of South Africa. I spent many years, snuggled in bed, listening to the mighty rumbling in the heavens as they opened over the city of Johannesburg. To me, it was a comforting sound. It is a sound that I miss almost as much as my family who still lives there. Thunderstorms feel like “home”.

However, my kids were not familiar or comfortable with the sound coming from the heavens last night; and I realised that “don’t be silly” was not going to help their trepidation. They needed a little more reassurance. So, my husband and I imparted some of our general knowledge and life experience, but it was the last comment I made that put them at ease:

“What about the lightning?” Zoe asked.

“Oh, it’s just the flashlight on God’s smartphone. He loves taking pictures of you!” I replied. That seemed to do the trick. We had a little giggle and everyone went back to bed as I reminded them to smile when they see the flashlight.

“The voice of the Lord echoes through the skies and seas.
The Glory-God reigns as he thunders in the clouds.
So powerful is his voice, so brilliant and bright,
how majestic as he thunders over the great waters!”

Psalm 29:3-4 TPT

With the kids back in their beds, attempting to get back to sleep, I started to think about Psalm 29 and the powerful picture it paints about the voice of God in our lives. I was thinking about the years I spent feeling afraid of His voice and scared that I would be consumed by God’s disappointment and anger.

Understanding God’s heart towards me changed the way I responded to His voice. I no longer hide from it, afraid and unsure of what I might encounter, because I am confident in His limitless love for me. I know that I am not only safe with Him, but when He speaks, it comforts me. Even when it feels like mighty thunder, I know His heart is to love, heal, deliver and restore me.

It kind of feels like we’re going through a bit of stormy weather in this uncertain season we are experiencing at the minute. All the shaking and thundering around us can make us want to hide under the bed, making us question the heart of God towards us. However, it is in this stormy season that we can be completely confident that we will find our safety and comfort in a God who loves us, deeply.

“This is the one who gives his strength and might to his people.
This is the Lord giving us his kiss of peace.”

Psalm 29:11 (TPT)

Dear friend, I pray that you know just how much you are loved by God. May you find a place of comfort, security and peace in His arms. May you discover the beauty and power of His voice. His Words over you can move any mountain that you are confronted with. Allow Him to tell you how He feels about you.

May the Lord give you His kiss of peace.


Today I hear the Father say: “Precious Child. How I long to hear your voice. I never get tired of your company. You always make me smile. You bring such joy to my heart. I do not want you to be intimidated by the uncertainties of life. Please don’t feel uncertain about my love for you either. You are safe with me. And you are always welcome here. Always.” ❤

Leaving Limbo

Are you tired of waiting for God to show up? Are you wondering if He is ever going to do something about the situation that you’re stuck in; or if He even wants to? When will He move?

Dear friend, let me tell you that you are not alone. I am so familiar with that feeling. I remember standing in a worship service on a Father’s Day Sunday. As I stood with my eyes closed and my arms raised in worship, a picture of the Father’s face dropped into my spirit.

It is a picture that I have pinched from the movie Tangled, because that is how the Father introduced Himself to me. As I worshipped, I saw that tear rolling down the kings face again, just before the celebration for the lost princess began. He was so moved by her absence.

In that moment, I heard the gentle whisper of the Holy Spirit: “Meliza, God is moved about your struggle, but He doesn’t have to move. You do.” It kind of knocked me out of the song I was singing and I couldn’t wait to get home to explore this a little more. What did He mean? Does God not move anymore? What did He mean by saying that it was me who needed to move?

As I sat with an open journal and a heart ready to receive, I asked the Holy Spirit to help me understand what He meant. He reminded me that Jesus paid the ultimate price for me on the cross, and that everything I would ever need, was given to me in that moment. That was God’s ultimate move. The move of all moves, so to speak.

“He who did not spare [even] His own Son, but gave Him up for us all, how will He not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things?”
Romans 8:32 AMP

Maybe the answer was not in waiting FOR God, but waiting ON Him.

Often we can spend our time waiting for God to show up, wave His magic wand and change our circumstances in an instant. Our expectations are some set on some external force coming to shift and move things on our behalf. Over the last few years I have learned that, that is not how God works. He has put the answer for every problem, in each and every born-again heart.

Everything we could ever need for life and complete devotion to God has already been deposited in us by his divine power. For all this was lavished upon us through the rich experience of knowing him who has called us by name and invited us to come to him through a glorious manifestation of his goodness. As a result of this, he has given you magnificent promises that are beyond all price, so that through the power of these tremendous promises you can experience partnership with the divine nature, by which you have escaped the corrupt desires that are of the world.”
2 Peter 1:3-4 TPT

We already have everything we need to leave the land of Limbo. It has been deposited into us, when we were born into the kingdom of God. We access that through getting to know God intimately and it’s through our relationship with Him, that we discover the magnificent promises that He has made available to us in His Word.

This is the way He moves: in partnership with us, as we come into agreement with what He has promised in His Word. There is no shortcut. Not one with lasting results anyway – trust me, I have explored all the options. Ha!

The problem that kept me stuck in Limbo was that I believed that God was able to do the impossible, but I didn’t believe that He wanted to do it for me. I didn’t feel good enough or that I deserved His help. That, however, was the very thing I needed to believe. If we want to see the promises of God manifest in our life, we need to be fully convinced that God is not just able, but He is also willing. He wants us to be free, to be healed, delivered, to prosper in every area of our lives.

We need to not just know it, but believe!

That is why we need to not just read about the love of God, we need to experience it. One of my favourite scriptures says that God is able to do immeasurably more than we could ever hope for, dream or imagine. The second part of that verse (Ephesians 3:20), says that He does this through His power that is at work IN US.

Not His power that He releases from Heaven, but the power of faith, hope and love. HIS power at work IN US.

We can never truly believe something, until we experience it.

When I looked at the verses preceding that verse (Ephesians 3:14-20) I discovered that Paul was praying for a prayer for the church of Ephesus. A prayer, that I would like to pray for you right now:

I pray to our awesome Father,
That He would unveil to you the incredible power He has deposited in you. I pray that He will strengthen you from the inside out, as you discover the faith and power He has placed in you. I pray that you will personally experience the marvelous love of God, in all it’s dimensions. That you will encounter Him frequently; in your everyday moments. I pray that you will become established, rooted and grounded in His love for you. May you become a body, flooded with His presence and may His love spills out from you, wherever you go.
I ask this, in Jesus Name.

It’s time to leave Limbo!


Today, I hear the Father say: “Wonderful Child. It’s time to rise up and step into the divine nature I have deposited in you. It’s time to position yourself in the authority I have bestowed upon you, in Christ. You have what it takes to walk out of the stronghold and take hold of the land I have given you. The land where you prosper in ALL things. It is already yours. Your inheritance from your Father, who adores you.” ❤


You may be wondering about the title of this blog; I’ll explain later. First, let me put it all in context.

In an attempt to polish off my manuscript before I submit it to the publisher, I have been burning the midnight oil. Moments of peace and quiet are hard to come by since being housebound with two kids. I have learned that writing a book is a much more productive process when everyone is in bed.

School work, house work, book writing; there’s not much time to stop and smell the roses, so I have decided to take the day off to celebrate my son’s birthday today. No school work, no book writing and minimal housework. Just a day to do whatever we felt like. It’s not every day your son turns thirteen.


I am the mum of a teenager! I know you have heard this a million times before, but I just don’t know where the time went. Thirteen years ago, I was looking at a scrunched up little face, peeking at me with one eye as if he was not quite sure that I was up for the job yet. He was not the only one, I was wondering about that too.

Here we are, thirteen years later and I have kept him alive and happy, so we have both won. I am still just as in love with that little face, as if we were back in the Royal Preston Hospital on that Monday evening when he came bouncing into our world.

When my kids were little, I started this little tradition of doing a little video with my favourite pictures of them, showing how they have grown. I take a lot of pictures. A lot. I love taking pictures of them. They don’t love it so much, but it is one of my favourite things to do in life. I have thousands upon thousands of pictures, because I keep them all. Even the blurry ones.

They do complain when every time when I reach for my phone to take advantage of a photographic opportunity, but when it’s time for their birthday videos, they enjoy it as much as I do. Every now and again they will ask me if we can watch their birthday video together.

To keep up with this tradition, I made Aidan’s birthday video this morning, like I do every year. I have watched it over and over and over again. I can’t help myself. I have seen it so many times that the background music has now become a permanent soundtrack to every thought I have. I just delight myself in seeing them grow.

This evening, as everyone settled in for the night, I heard the gentle whisper of the Father saying: “I delight in seeing you grow, too, Meliza.” I had a picture of Him looking at His smartphone (what technology they have in Heaven!) watching my video. Photograph upon photograph. And I remembered these truths:

The Father has thousands upon thousands of thoughts about me.

Every single moment you are thinking of me!
How precious and wonderful to consider

that you cherish me constantly in your every thought!
O God, your desires toward me are more
than the grains of sand on every shore!
When I awake each morning, you’re still with me.

Psalm 139:17 TPT

The Father only has good thoughts about me.

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV

For so many years I believed that the Father only tolerated me for the sake of Jesus, and the great sacrifice He made on the cross for me. That was such a wicked lie from the enemy. The truth is that the Father offered up His only Son, because He loved us.

The greatest revelation I have ever received is this: I am not a tolerated child. I am a celebrated child.

The Father delights in me, like I delight in my son. He lionises me. To lionise someone is to “assign great social importance to them” (The Free Dictionary). It is another word for celebrate. You see, I have already written a blog titled ‘Celebrated’, so I needed a synonym. I liked it. After all, I am from the tribe of the Lion of Judah.

Dear friend, I hope that you know how much the Father delights in you. His thoughts about you outnumber the sands on the shore and each one of them is good. He loves you. He celebrates you.

He lionises you!


Today, I hear the Father say: “Beautiful Child, the one in whom my heart delights. You are altogether wonderful. I continuously study every detail of your life. I delight to see you grow and mature into my very likeness. Thinking about you makes me smile. That is why I am always happy. You are always on my mind. Don’t you ever forget that you were my greatest prize. You are loved, and I am so proud of you.” ❤

The Battle

Right now, we are finding ourselves in the middle of a raging war. Have you noticed? I am not talking about the war against this dreaded virus, or any social or political agenda either. I am talking about a war that is happening in the realm of the unseen.

I started to take notice of it last week, as I lost my temper several times in the most horrendous way. I noticed it, as I dragged myself out of bed several mornings, after spending most of the night trying to switch off and struggling to sleep. I noticed it, as I have been increasingly getting irritated with little things and even started hearing myself say things like: “I just can’t do this anymore!”

What happened? Where did I lose my peace and my joy? Perhaps I haven’t been paying attention to the real enemy hiding behind the screen of COVID-19. An enemy who is after the most powerful weapon I carry: my heart.

My eyes were opened as I worked on my book last night. As I looked at the story of David standing toe to toe with Goliath (1 Samuel 17), I realised that the giant was only the puppet behind which the real enemy was trying to hide. The real battle was for David’s heart – the heart of the future king of Israel.

Perhaps the war started a long time before David even stepped onto the battlefield. Maybe the enemy tried to inject his heart with offence as David’s own father didn’t consider him as future-ruler-material. Maybe he stirred up jealousy in the hearts of David’s brothers when they weren’t chosen by the prophet. Maybe the enemy tried to discourage David when his oldest brother called him prideful and accused him of only coming to the battlefield to watch the “show”.

David, however, was not about to let a giant enemy taint the reputation of the God he knew and loved. Even against king Saul’s better judgment, he ran towards that giant without a shred of armor on his body; armed with only five smooth stones and a shepherd’s sling. But take a closer look at this picture with the eyes of your heart, and you will see that David’s true armor was fully intact.

He wore his helmet of salvation: a mind filled with the truth. He wore his breastplate of righteousness: he knew that he was not only in right standing with the Creator of Heaven and Earth, but he was deeply loved by Him. The Sword of the Spirit pierced the heart of that giant as David decreed what God was about to do, even before David decapitated his enemy with his own weapon.

In the natural it may have seemed that the scales were tipped in favor of Goliath, but the battle behind the scenes told a different story. The enemy hiding behind the giant puppet had no real power, and the little shepherd boy was backed by the angel armies of Heaven; even the Creator of Heaven and Earth Himself.

The scales were tipped indeed, but they were tipped towards David. It was never a fair fight to begin with.

The battle we read about is between the Israelites and the Philistines, but the actual battle was for David’s heart. The battle that we find ourselves in, today is not a fight for survival against this unseen virus. The battle is for our hearts. When we lose heart, we surrender it to an enemy who craves the creative power it carries.

Our mouths spill over with the faith we have stored up in our hearts. That faith can align with the Creator of Heaven and Earth, the One who came to give us life more abundantly. Or the puppeteer who only comes to steal, kill and destroy. That is why the enemy so desperately wants access to our hearts – we empower him as we agree with his thoughts.

David did not lose heart; he was not intimidated by the giant in front of him because his confidence was in the One Who was standing behind him.

Which makes me wonder what happened to my confidence? Have I surrendered my heart and allow the little frustrations and irritations intimidate me? Have I become weary in standing firm in the intimate knowledge of the One who deeply loves me? The One who surrendered His life for me?

It pains me to say it, but I have allowed the enemy access to my heart as I aligned with the arrows he fired at my mind. In agreement with his lies, I have uttered words of hopelessness and defeat; releasing his poison into the atmosphere in our house; but it stops here. He has been caught and I am taking my heart back today!

It’s time to remember Whose shadow I am standing under.

“But let them all be glad,
those who turn aside to hide themselves in you.
May they keep shouting for joy forever!
Overshadow them in your presence as they sing and rejoice.
Then every lover of your name will burst forth with endless joy.
Lord, how wonderfully you bless the righteous.
Your favor wraps around each one and covers them
under your canopy of kindness and joy.”

Psalm 5:11-12 TPT


Today, I hear the Father say: “Wonderful Child, look up! I am the shield around you, your glory and the lifter of your head. Don’t let your head hang in discouragement or frustration. Lift your eyes and allow your heart to connect with mine. Allow my strength to be your confidence. Receive my grace for your race. When you plant your feet on mine, you won’t get weary as we run. I have got you! We have already won.” ❤

The comfort of captivity

A few days ago, as I was folding washing in my bedroom, my daughter asked me a question about the movie, Tangled. Since I have embarked on the process of writing my book about experiencing the heart of the Father through this particular movie, it’s kind of been a regular topic in our household. Particularly for my daughter, who has discovered a fresh affinity for this movie.

“You know, Mum,” she said as I sat on the bed matching socks, “Gothel wasn’t really such a bad mother. She bought Rapunzel special paints and made her the food she liked. Rapunzel didn’t have it so bad.”

“My goodness, Zoe!” I exclaimed. “She stole Rapunzel from her real mother and father; and she used her, for her magical powers. She didn’t let her out of the tower at all.”

This was followed by a fun little debate as to whether it was so bad living in a tower, when you have everything you need inside of it. It was a lovely distraction from the chore I was doing and I didn’t pay too much attention to it, until later in the day, when I started thinking about the walls of my own stronghold that I lived in for such a long time.

Isn’t Gothel just such a great analogy of how the enemy loves to keep us confined in a stronghold, when we were created for the Kingdom? He loves to keep us busy and comfortable. Think about it, even our areas of brokenness and struggle can become a comfort zone. We get so used to functioning in our dysfunction, that it almost seem unbearably uncomfortable to step outside of our tower.

Leaving her tower was not just a huge risk for Rapunzel, but she was completely out of her comfort zone. She had no true frame of reference for the reality that would unfold before her; and I love the scene where she is so conflicted by her decision to walk away, because I can relate so deeply to it. That feeling of being unsure if you’re doing the right thing, when you’re walking away from everything that feels familiar.

The further you walk though, the more you discover that you were never meant to be stuck in a tower. There is abundantly more than you could ever hope, dream or imagine, waiting for you as you keep putting one foot in front of the other; but, it’s going to take courage and endurance.

The enemy doesn’t thwart the plans of God for your life by showing up in a red bodysuit and pitchfork; he makes you comfortable in your dysfunction. He makes you so busy focusing on your problem, that you can’t see beyond the walls of your stronghold.

Dear friend, if you’re feeling uncomfortable and unsure about your journey right now, I want to tell you it’s a great thing! You have stepped out of your tower and you are walking towards your destiny. Yes, it’s uncomfortable, but you’re about to step into everything you were created for. Isn’t that worth the little bit of discomfort right now? Oh, I am so preaching to myself right now! I want to echo the words of Paul:

“I admit that I haven’t yet acquired the absolute fullness that I’m pursuing, but I run with passion into his abundance so that I may reach the purpose that Jesus Christ has called me to fulfill and wants me to discover.  I don’t depend on my own strength to accomplish this; however I do have one compelling focus: I forget all of the past as I fasten my heart to the future instead. I run straight for the divine invitation of reaching the heavenly goal and gaining the victory-prize through the anointing of Jesus.”
Philippians 3:12-14 TPT

We don’t have to run as fast as anyone else, we just need to keep moving in the right direction: towards the One who is inviting us to draw near, so that we can lay hold of everything that belongs to us in Jesus.

Let go of the comfort of your captivity and say goodbye to your stronghold, awesome child of God.

You’re not going back there!


Today, I hear the Father whisper: “Beautiful Child! It’s time to awaken to the strength, wisdom and power that is on the inside of you. Let go of yesterday’s chapter, I am writing a new one. It is full of new adventures marked out for you; designed to bring you to the fullness of what I have given you through my Son. Every step will be worth it! Promise.” ❤

The End

Who doesn’t love a good movie ending? The guy gets the gal and saves the world in the nick of time. The princess finds her prince charming and they all live happily, ever after. You have to admit, you can’t beat a happy ending.

There’s nothing that frustrates me more than an ending that is open for interpretation. I want to be able to perfectly conclude what the future holds for each of the characters before I say goodbye. Don’t leave me hanging, I don’t like it!

The reality is that life is full of open endings. Every ending is just a new beginning in disguise: the end of pregnancy means a new beginning for a little person and their mum; the end of your education means the start of your career; the end of one project opens up an invitation to dream about the next one.

Why are we always in a rush to get to the end, only to find a new beginning?

A few nights ago, as I was trying desperately to switch my busy mind off and get a few hours sleep, I sensed the Lord show me a whole new entire direction with this book. “Oh no!” I thought, “I was so close to the end!” What He showed me was so much greater than what I could have imagined.

I know that what He is breathing into this book will be worth every minute spent re-wording and restructuring and as demanding as this process feels, I know it is working something in me that no amount of money or time can accomplish. God is creating a new beginning.

And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”
Revelation 21:5 ESV

Can I trust Him to lead me to the end of this process and help me transition into the new season ahead? This is a question that does not just apply to my book, but to every area of my life.

Dear friend, I pray that we will have the courage to live comfortably in the in-betweens. Where ever you find yourself from the beginning or the end, may you have the grace to embrace the moment, because He uses all of it for our good and for His glory. He will make something new out of everything we surrender to Him.

Today, I remind myself to just sit close enough to hear His heartbeat, until my own syncs up with His; and as I hear the Words He whispers to my heart, I will faithfully write them down and enjoy every moment of the journey.

After all, the end is only just a new beginning in disguise.


Today I hear the Father whisper: “Faithful One. How I wish you could see the future that awaits you as you put your trust in me. I will never disappoint you or leave you wanting. You are the very beat of my heart; my image on the earth and therefore, I love to bless the work of your hands. There is a great blessing on your diligence, so keep up the good work, dear one. I don’t miss a thing!” ❤