See For Yourself

Disappointment sucks!

There, I said it.

There is no way to sugar-coat it. Whether you are the one dishing it out or on the receiving end, disappointment stings. That is why I do everything I possibly can to avoid it. However, there are times when no matter how hard you try to steer your ship around the iceberg, there is just no way to avoid a full-on collision. The crash is painful enough, but then you’re also left with the broken pieces of the ship and that sinking feeling of loss, grief and confusion.

It is not easy when things don’t work out the way we had hoped and planned. Yesterday, as I drove home from the morning school run, that sinking feeling hit me out of nowhere and I knew it was time to jump ship and swim to shore. Jesus is always there for me, waiting by the fire. Waiting for me to come sit and talk things through.

As I plopped down on my bed, I opened my Bible in Luke. Chapter 24 to be exact. I spent some time with the disciples. Things did not work out the way they had hoped. Their dreams were crushed along with the body of the one they had put all their hope in. The Messiah that was about to bring peace and freedom, was no longer with them. Or so they thought…

As I read Luke 24 I was with them in that room, as they shared all the rumours they have heard. Could it be true? Is the grave really empty? Did Jesus come back to life? Did He really appear to Mary and Peter? Was it really Him who walked and talked with the two on the road of Emmaus?

Can you imagine the hodgepopdge of simmering emotions that must have been swirling around in that room? The confusing tension between loss and hope? Then suddenly…

Jesus appears and everyone freaks out! If they listened and understood what Jesus had been saying to them all the time, would all of the events that had taken place have been less upsetting and confusing? Probably. But here they are, face to face with Hope. In the middle of their greatest disappointment.

While they were still discussing all of this, Jesus suddenly appeared right in front of their eyes! Startled and terrified, the disciples were convinced they were seeing a ghost. Standing there among them he said, “Be at peace. I am the living God. Don’t be afraid. Why are you so frightened? Don’t let doubt enter your hearts. See my pierced hands and feet. See for yourselves, it is I, standing here alive. Touch me and know that my wounds are real. A spirit does not have a body of flesh and bone as you see that I have.” Then he showed them his pierced hands and feet and let them touch his wounds
Luke 24:36-39 TPT

The dream that was in tatters were in reality, only a door to a new season of grace and power. God did not go back on His promise of salvation and freedom – it just looked a little different than what they had imagined. Hope rose in my heart as Jesus looked at me and said: “Be at peace. I am the living God. Don’t be afraid. The dream is not over, it just looks a little different than what you had imagined.”

But the phrase that jumped out at me and shook me right out of the clutches of disappointment was this:

See for yourselves…

Jesus made Himself available. He invited them to touch Him. To put their hands in His wounds! Man, that is next level intimacy. He invited them into a physical experience of His presence.

When your hopes and dreams don’t manifest as you had hoped, you can tell yourself a million times that God works all things together for your good, and that is true, but God does not just want you to know it – He wants to invite you into a physical experience of His presence in the middle of your disappointment. He wants you to see for yourself!

Beautiful friend, I pray that you will encounter your Saviour in the midst of your trouble. That you will feel the tangible presence of your Redeemer and Deliverer. That you will see for yourself, as He restores every little piece of your broken dream.

The dream is not over.

It just looks a little different than what you imagined.

Heart Print:

Today I hear the Father say:

“Dear One. I want you to see for yourself that I am a GOOD Father. I want you to see for yourself that I am EVERYTHING my Word claims I am. I am your comforter. I am your fortress, your deliverer, your freedom, your strength. I am your fountain of life. The Light by which you see light. Your protection. Your provider. Your greatest promoter. I am your Father. And you are so precious to me.” ❤

The Intimidating Button

Have you ever been intimidated by a tiny little button?

This is not about the buttons on your jacket that won’t fasten because of those extra covid-induced pounds you gained. (That is a whole other blog, ha!). No. I am talking about the little button on the top right hand corner of this blog page. The one that is daring you to ‘publish’ your writing.

I remember the first time I pushed that little button. My heart was racing. My palms were sweaty. I was so scared. I had a million “what if’s” swirling around in my heart.

What if I am misunderstood?

What if people think I am trying to promote myself?

What if people see that I am not really good at this?

What if nobody reads this?

What brought me to this point of sitting in front of my laptop, writing my first blog and staring at that little blue button? Well, it’s a story that stretches over many years. I have always loved writing, but never had the courage to follow that little tug in my heart. I also have a story to tell. A story of stumbling around in darkness and finally learning some truths that opened the door of my tower. Since I can remember, it has been my passion to help people. To share what I have discovered in the hope that it would unlock the doors of their prisons too.

After an encounter with God at the cinema and several prophetic calls to write (over the span of a decade), I finaly took my first shaky step towards the dream that was wired into my heart. I joined a mentoring programme. I had so much to learn. One of the challenges they set us, was to write every day, even if it was just for seven minutes. They suggested starting a blog. So there I found myself, heart beating in my mouth, in a staring contest with a little blue button.

Will I have the courage to push it? To let go of the fear of what people will think? To let go of the doubt that God was calling me to write with Him?

Pushing that button felt like the equivalent of pushing the boat into the deep. And at times when it felt like Jesus was sleeping, I was just glad that He was in my boat. The boat left the shore on the 19th of November 2019 and less that two years later, I have written 143 blogs, puslished my first book, about to publish a second book and I have completed my third manuscript.

The button may be intimidating, but it has been a great coach, helping me break out of the fear that kept me stuck for so many years. Every time I pushed that button, I broke through a barrier. I realised that many of those fears were simply smoke screens appearing to be limitations.

Beautiful friend, what have you been called to do that is making your heart beat and your palms sweat? What is your blue button? Don’t allow that button to intimidate you, but give it permission to be your coach. Allow it to push you out of your comfort zone and into the deep with Jesus. He will not let you sink.

I have been to the deep. It’s not as scary as I thought and I am eager to go even further than I have been before.

Do you want to come with me?

If you’re interested in developing your spiritual senses and your gift of writing, I want to invite you to join me for an online retreat for Prophetic Writers. Click here for more details. We are going to push the boat out and go deep. We are going to hit that button until every fear is silenced. We are going to uleash that God-given ROAR on the inside of us. I hope you can join me.

But, whether you join me or not, I am praying for you! I am praying that you will not shrink back in intimidation. I pray that you will not listen to the voice of fear any longer. May you rise up with righteous boldness and unleash the gift that is in you. The world needs it. The Kingdom needs YOU! In the famous words of John Farnham: “You’re the voice!”

The Lord gave the word: Great was the company of those that published it.
Psalm 68:11 KJV

Heart Print:

Today, I hear the Father say:

“Courage, dear heart. All you need is found in me. Keep your ear close to my heart. Let your pen flow with the beats you hear. I am the Author and Finisher of your faith. Faith is always rewarded. So be bold, beautiful one. Believe. I have called you by name. I have called you to write. Stay close. I am with you. Always.” ❤

Boldly Building

On Tuesday morning, I attended my second pitstop meeting with a beautiful group of people from the Haberfield Baptist Church. I was introduced to this online connect group through a beautiful friend who recognised that my heart was hungry for a community of believers who are running after a deep, experiential and intimate knowledge of God. What I love so much about this group is that everyone is encouraged to share their hearts and every contribution is valued.

The topic of discussion on Tuesday, was God choosing to partner with us. This reality, is one that is very close to my heart. I have often pondered the paradox of an all-powerful God who chooses to do His work through humble people. There are so many examples just in chapter 11 in the book of Hebrews, proving this. God does the impossible THROUGH his chosen people. One of these examples of partnership was raised by the beautiful Amy, who shared her revelation on the instance of Nehemiah, whose dream was rebuilding the walls of the temple.

There are so many things that I love about this story and so many revelations that you can draw from the book of Nehemiah:

  • Nehemiah was so moved over the news about the broken-down walls of the temple that his boss (king Artaxerxes) could see it on his face!
  • Nehemiah was so respected in his high profile, ‘secular job’ that he was not only given time off to work on his dream, but he was sent off with the king’s blessing, resources and military protection!
  • The incredible way that Nehemiah continued to prayerfully direct this building project – at every challenge he turned to God for help and wisdom.

The list goes on…

However, the revelation that Amy shared was something I hadn’t considered in any great depth. She pointed out how groups of people were tasked with building different sections of the wall – and then she said: “You just need to build what’s in front of you.” That little sentence tugged at my heart so intensely.

Have you ever felt guilty for taking the time to do what you believe God has called you to do? Does it feel like your time should be spent doing other things that are more pressing and important? Have you felt that pressure to help others build their piece of the wall, because it seems more significant or important than that thing that God has put on your heart to do?

I am holding my hand up!

A number of years ago, God called me to write. It took some time to really pay attention to the call. There was a lot to overcome; gnawing insecurities, limited time and very little know-how. But slowly and surely, things started to fall into place.

In December 2018 my husband bought me a laptop for my birthday. His way of giving me a nudge in the right direction. I started to take baby steps forward. It was interesting to see how quickly the words started to flow, once I opened my laptop and started typing. By March 2019 I had a manuscript, but I wasn’t sure where to go or what to do with it. Later that year, I joined a mentoring programme called Unlocking Your Book. I took the time to learn how to do what I believed God was calling me to do.

In November 2020, I published my first book, Untangled. Within the next four to six weeks, I will be publishing a children’s book (it’s a wild, incredible God-story, but too much info for this post). And I have just finished my third manuscript!

Why am I telling you this? Well, because even though I know God has called me to write, I have struggled with it. It has been a constant wrestle between my heart and my head. I have had to turn down opportunities to serve in other capacities. I have made decisions turn away job applications, even though our family could have done with a few extra pounds in the bank.

My piece of the wall does not always feel significant, especially when I look at what others’ are building. The bricks and mortar in my hands often feel much less substantial than the ones that other people are building with. And sometimes, I really worry about being criticized for my clumsy building techniques. But I am not responsible for other parts of the wall. I am responsible for mine.

I just need to keep building what is in front of me.

And so do you, dear friend!

Let’s bravely continue to build our piece of the wall – one brick at a time. That dream that God has planted in your heart is significant. It has been wired into your very being, even before you were born. Don’t second guess it or play it down. Start building. Boldly.

After all, you are not building on your own. You have favour with the King. You have access to His favour, resources and protection. The God who partnered with Nehemiah (and Abraham, and Moses, and David, and Mary, and Paul and all those heroes of faith), is the same God who is in partnership with you!

The God of heaven [has appointed us for His purpose and] will give us success; therefore we His servants will arise and build…
Nehemiah 2:20 AMP

Heart Print:

Today, I hear the Father say:

“My Bold Builder. How I delight in your ‘YES’! My heart rejoices as you partner with my promises. As you trust in my strength, wisdom, resources and protection. I hold the blueprint for the dream in your heart. I will never leave you to figure it all out on your own. Trust me for the first step, and I will show you the next one. Step by step we will see that dream come true. For that dream is mine, too. The dream I planted in you.” ❤

Breakfast with Jesus

What do you do when you mess up? I’m not talking about spilling your milk. I am referring to those punch you in the gut mistakes. Those failures that messes with your heart and mind until you are fully convinced that you are never going to break free from the entanglement of your greatest weakness.

My favourite place to hang out whenever I stumbled was the pit of despair. I got pretty comfy in there. The walls of my pit were lined with posters of my epic fails. I would look at them. Study them intensely. Each poster would be a reminder that I did not have what it takes to live in freedom. To live as the person I was created to be. To walk in my true identity and purpose.

We all know that getting untangled and walking in freedom is a process, right? So why is it so easy to beat ourselves up over the times when we miss the mark?

This happened to me quite recently as I published my book, Untangled. I had just written about discovering my identity and freedom from the bondage of food and body image issues and here I was completely stuck in the same old habits and thought patterns. I tried to put the blame on the lockdowns and sitting behind my laptop for hours, writing, but deep down I knew that I had missed it: BIG TIME!

How can you write about freedom and be so bound, Meliza?

What gives you the right to preach about identity when you are such a mess?

How dare you share your story – it’s only giving people false hope!

These were the thoughts that was swirling around in my mind as I sat in my pit, staring at the new poster I had just added to an array of epic fails. And to be honest, it was getting pretty dark in there.

One morning, I saw a ray of light come through from the top of the pit and I decided to quickly grab a hold of it. A friend from across the pond reached out and asked me how I was doing and it made me stop and really think about her question. How am I doing? Not good! was the answer. But now my eyes were off the posters on my wall for just a second and I suddenly realised where I was. I recognised that pit and I remembered that there was a different place I could go!

I discovered this place as I studied the life of Peter (Simon Peter, the disciple of Jesus). Peter loved Jesus, but he wasn’t perfect and had to be corrected several times. However, I wonder how he felt watching the one he pledged his very own life to, die on the cross. The sheer awfulness of his betrayal must have left a bitter taste in his mouth. I often wonder how Peter must have felt as he went back to his fishing boat. Did he expect to see Jesus waiting for him on the shore? (John 21)

Jesus found Peter in the same place, doing the same thing. That thing that wasn’t producing any fruit. Peter fished all night and caught nothing! (Sound familiar? Read Luke 5). In both scenarios Jesus appeared and everything changed. Peter went from hiding in shame (Luke 5) to running towards Jesus, embracing the one he disappointed (John 21). And Jesus is ready, he has prepared the fire and they are about to have some breakfast on the beach.

It is over breakfast that Peter is restored in his true identity and purpose. In the very place where he was first called.

As I saw that ray of light shining into my pit of despair I realised I had somewhere else to be! Why hide in my pit of shame when I have an invitation to breakfast with Jesus? So I got out of there as fast as I could and ran to the shore where Jesus stood waiting; with fire and sustenance. He helped me. With compassion and kindness. And you know what? I am restored! He reminded me of who I am. He gave me simple instructions for walking in freedom and for the first time in a long time, it is working. And it is fun!

Beautiful friend, there is a different place to go when you mess up. When you feel deflated, discouraged or disappointed. Especially when those feelings are targeted at your very own heart. Jesus is waiting for you to step out of your pit of despair and join him for breakfast. He has prepared the fire and He wants to restore you. He wants to look deep into your eyes and tell you who you truly are and who you were created to be. He wants to establish you for the purpose that you were always meant to walk in.

So, will you accept the invitation?

If you’re struggling with those feelings of despair then I have something for you. Here is a little clip from my course, How to be EPIC at failing. It is a powerful Word I received from the Lord as I interceded for the participants of the course. As you listen to it, close your eyes and see yourself walk out of the pit of despair and towards Jesus who is waiting for you.

The fire is ready.

Jesus is wating.

Breakfast is served.

Punching Shadows

I know what it feels like to be overshadowed by my weakness. For many years I threw punches at that shadow until I was completely exhausted and utterly defeated.

I couldn’t understand WHY I couldn’t win this fight when the Word says that I am more than a conqueror! It wasn’t for lack of TRYING.

Reinhard Bonnke once said that he tried to outrun his shadow for many years. No matter how far or fast he ran, he couldn’t escape it. Then one day, he turned towards the sun (Son) and he was no longer aware of his shadow.

Are you tired from trying to outrun your shadow?

That’s exactly where the enemy of our souls wants us. Focused on our shadows. Exhausted from throwing punches at something we cannot change oursleves.

It’s time to stop running, stop fighting and turn to the Son.

BUT… How do we turn?
What does that process look like?

Let me share with you my story of shadow-punching and the simple steps I have learned to shift myself out of the pit of despair and into the light of God’s transforming love.

Motivation didn’t do it for me.

Inspiration didn’t do it for me.

I needed supernatural and practical help. I have learned how to be EPIC at failing and I would like to share my self-coaching tool with you in an interactive workshop that I will be hosting on zoom on the 25th of June at 10am (UK).

This includes:
The Workshop
Training Manual
Self-Coacing Tool
Live Q&A
Prophetic Ministry

And you will learn how to:

  • break out of the cycle of perpetual failure
  • eliminate the voice of shame and condemnation
  • turn your setbacks into stepping stones that will launch you into your purpose and destiny

That weakness that is overshadowing you is about to become your greatest trainer and coach. Your greatest weakness is the launch pad for your glorious purpose.

You can be EPIC at failing.

Book your seat here.

It’s time to exchange your ashes for a beautiful crown of victory. That is God’s will for you. It has been His plan from the very start, even before you were born.

…and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.
Isaiah 61:3 NIV

Heart Print:

Today, I see the Father wrap His arm around us saying:

“My Chosen one. It’s time to rise from the ashes you have grown used to. Rise. Do not think that the struggle was in vain. It has served a purpose. It has trained you for YOUR purpose. Rise. Who told you that the shadow has any substance? Keep your eyes on me and remember that my Light is not just shining upon you, but shining from WITHIN you. Rise. No darkness can put out my Light. Rise.” ❤

I tried smoking to stop eating, this is what happened…

You have heard it said that desperate times call for desperate measures. Well, I was desperate. Eighteen years old and about to start a new chapter of my life, I walked onto the campus of the Rand Afrikaans University with new hope. These were going to be the best years of my life. There was a kind of freedom in the air. I was no longer constrained by the school bell or my ever tightening-uniform.

My new schedule meant that I had plenty of time to study or socialise in the cafeteria and I spent many hours waiting for my next class or for my friends to finish their lessons. It was 1995 and we did not have the gift of smart phone technology or social media, but I did have another addiction that would nudge me on the shoulder when waiting became uncomfortable. I would eat.

With six years of yo-yo dieting already under my belt, I knew that I was heading down a slippery slope that would take me where I really did not want to go. Already not happy with the way I looked and watching all the young, beautiful girls walk around on campus, seeing the attention that many of them reveived, made me look for an alternative drug of choice. Cheeseburgers were not going to help, but I could fill the void with a ciggie or two, I reckoned. By then I had tried every diet, pill, injection, patch, therapy, even surgery and nothing worked, so what did I have to lose?

Being the pastor’s eldest and most responsible daughter, I made sure to hide my new habit as best I could, but it wasn’t long until my little sister found a wonderful opportunity to dim the light that was casting the shadow she was living under. She knew something was off and followed me to a park near our house. She watched as I sat on the swing and lit up my new found hope of skinniness. Through the exhaled smoke I saw her little feet run as fast as a squirrel up a tree, towards our house. I knew my time was up. I had been found out and I was about to feel the consequences of my poor decision.

By the time I made it home, my father was ready. He had some time to prepare (I might have been dragging my feet a little on the way home). As I was summoned into my bedroom, I prayed for the rapture to come. I couldn’t tell what the worst part was – having to reach towards a cigarette because I couldn’t stop eating or disappointing my dad? Head hanging low, I walked into my room and sat on the bed. My dad sat down next to me. I waited for the verdict. After what felt like an eternity, he finally said:

“Meliza, this is not who you are.”

What? No disappointment? No ridicule, punishment or shame? I started to cry unconsolably, but somehow my heart felt a little lighter. My father was less bothered about a bad habit, than about me trying to hide my struggle from him. He understood that I was struggling and he wanted to help.

Those seven words did something miraculous to me: it lifted me out of the shame of my mistake. It was a seed planted in my heart that would grow into a revelation of my true identity as a daughter of God. I am often reminded of that very moment, when I feel shame knocking at the door of my heart. When I have messed up and settled for something that was not meant to be my portion (my inheritance), I now have the ability to recognise it and say: “This is not for me. This is not who I am.”

Our Heavenly Father loves to do the same for us when we miss the mark. It is in our moments of greatest weakness that he wants us to come to Him. He is not that bothered about our bad habits. He is more troubled by the fact that we’re hiding from Him. He doesn’t want us to struggle on our own, but turn to Him for the help we need. He wants to heal our hearts and see us live in wholeness and freedom.

Jesus did this very thing for Peter as He met him on the shore of Galilee, after Peter betrayed Him. I cannot imagine the shame Peter must have felt as he sat in his fishing boat – back at square one. This was the place where the old Simon Peter was first recruited. Followed by three years of walking with Jesus, dreaming about the glorious future as the Messiah would rescue His people from oppression. Now the dream was over. Jesus was dead. And Peter, the Rock, the one who pledged to die for his Messiah, couldn’t even stand up to be counted when the going got tough.

Yet, there on the shore stood the resurrected Messiah, the friend of Peter, Jesus – building a fire and waiting for Peter. Not with punishment, ridicule or shame. Waiting to restore Peter. To establish him in his true identity and get him back on track so that he could live out his divinely ordained purpose. (*John 21)

Over breakfast with Jesus, on the beach, Peter is lifted out of the pit of despair. Affirmed as a friend. The unstable one of the group is called to be a firm foundation and commissioned to do the work he had always been created for.

Beautiful friend, what is that weakness that keeps messing with your identity? That thing that keeps trying to disqualify you from the good plans and glorious purpose that God has for your life? Can I encourage you to come out of hiding? You do not belong in the pit of despair. This is not for you. This is not who you are.

You are the beloved child of the Most High, deeply loved and treasured. You have the same power in you that raised Jesus from the dead. You have dreams planted in your heart for a purpose. You are destined to overcome. Freedom is your birth right.

It’s time to lift your head.

There is no punishment, ridicule or shame for you.

Only restoration and freedom. A great commission awaits.

You’re invited for breakfast with Jesus.


So now we draw near freely and boldly to where grace is enthroned, to receive mercy’s kiss and discover the grace we urgently need to strengthen us in our time of weakness.
Hebrews 4:16 TPT

Beautiful friend, you do not need to allow your failure to disqualify you or direct the course of your life. You can turn those moments of epic failure into encounters with a God who loves you and created you for a purpose. He dreamed you into existence and designed you with intention. Your destiny is secure when you walk with Him.

If you are interested in learning how to turn your greatest weakness into your glorious purpose, I love to invite you to join me on the 25th of June 2021 for a live, interactive workshop where I will teach you how to practically walk out this truth. (Sign up here.)

It’s time to run boldly into His arms.

It’s time to walk in your true identity and purpose.

Heart Print:

Today, I see Jesus sitting on the other side of the fire as we’re having breakfast on the beach:

“My Chosen One. A million failures cannot rewrite the dreams I have for you. Keep coming back to the fire, come and receive what you need when things are difficult. When you feel like your strength is gone, let me be the source of your life. My heart is strong enough to sustain you. Rest in me and let me love you. Don’t try so hard, but let me love through you. I am your true identity and purpose. Your glorious inheritance. And you, Beloved, are mine.” ❤

Baarack’s Story

A few months ago, as I scrolled through my Facebook newsfeed, I was introduced to Baarack the Australian sheep that was rescued and relieved of about 35kg of wool. Aparently, that is enough wool to knit 61.3 jumpers! I’m not sure what you would do with a third of a jumper, but even so, you have admit: that is A LOT of wool.

According to the Irish Times, Baarack was found wandering alone and his rescuers said that he was once an owned merino sheep; the kind that needs to be shorn at least once a year as they do not shed their wool.

As I watched Baarack’s story play through on my newsfeed, I started to feel the tears well up. Seeing his happy little face when he was freed from that heavy load he was carrying made envy his new found freedom a little. I was carrying a load of my own at the time, although it wasn’t an overgrown load of wool tangled up with twigs and dirt, it felt eaqually heavy and messy. And yes, the additional weight on my body that I have been carrying around for years has been a struggle for sure, but it was the emotional and mental weight that was really starting to weigh me down.

Baarack’s message reached my heart with a divinely inspired truth – I had been wandering alone too long, producing and growing (which is all good) but without taking the time to stop and allow the Shepherd to relieve me of the weight of what I was carrying. You see, we all carry stuff. We know that some of it isn’t good, like the twigs, muds and tangled wool. However, sheep are known for what they produce; their wool. As children of God, we are called to be productive too, but sometimes we need to be freed from the burden of our calling.

There are times when I am so focused on what needs to be done that I lose sight of the bigger picture. I forget that I need to be cared for, before I can care. And that I have not been called to carry the weight of the world, because Jesus, our Good Shepherd, already has. When we allow the Good Shepherd to take good care of us, we are able to be productive in a healthy way; in a beautiful way.

That is why the Good Shepherd extends this invitation to all of his wandering sheep:

“Are you weary, carrying a heavy burden? Come to me. I will refresh your life, for I am your oasis. Simply join your life with mine. Learn my ways and you’ll discover that I’m gentle, humble, easy to please. You will find refreshment and rest in me. For all that I require of you will be pleasant and easy to bear.”
Matthew 11:28-30 TPT

Are you prone to wandering? Are you feeling weighed down by all the burdens you are carrying? Is your need to be productive robbing you from the joy of what you’re producing?

Perhaps it’s time to see the Shepherd. He will remove the mud and twigs that got stuck in that messy growth. He will untangle the knots and help you to take all of your acitivity and productivity and make it into something that will bring something both practical and beautiful to those who need it. And you will feel light and free in the process.

Baarack before and after his transformation
(Photo credit: Edgar’s Mission)

I want to live in the joy that Baarack displayed as he said goodbye to all that heaviness. And I know I am not the only wandering, heavy sheep out there. Let’s not continue to wander around on our own but agree to make time with the Good Shepherd a priority.

Make this your declaration today:

I have a Good Shepherd who is kind and gentle and who do not put heavy burdens on me. I choose to surrender the burden of productivity to Him. He helps me to walk lightly and freely within the boundaries of the purpose that He created me for.


Heavenly Father

You are so good! Help us to embrace the joy of the purpose you have created us for. Show us how to partner with you in everything we do. Thank you for shouldering the weight of our responsiblitities. Give us a deep revelation of who you are as our Source. Remind us to run boldly to you when life feels heavy, tangled and messy.

Take our heaviness. Our burdens. All of the stress and anxiety that we have been carrying. And help us to find rest in your amazing love for us.

In Jesus Name

Heart Print:

Today I hear the Good Shepherd say:

“My Lovely One, why so restless? Have you forgotten that I have already taken care of every need you have today? I certainly have. I have also taken care of every need you will have tomorrow and in the days to come. Can you stay a little longer? Here, in the oasis that I have created for you? Let me refresh and revive you. For I AM your Life; the Source of your livelihood. My plan for you is to live light and free. To enjoy your life. The abundant life I made available for you. Because, my dear, I love you so.” ❤


Have you ever stood in a familiar place feeling completely lost?

During our Summer holiday in 2016 we visited my native home country, South Africa. It was the first time I returned to see friends and family after 9 years. Raising a young family and financial constraints made it difficult to go back “home” at the time. Thankfully, I had many visitors from there and with the help of technology, the world doesn’t seem so big anymore.

The day before we were to board the flight back to the UK, I sat in a coffee shop with my husband and struggled to fight back the tears as we talked about the epic holiday we just experienced in the land where we both were born and raised. The generosity of friends and family ensured that we could give our children an incredible taste of the beauty and adventure that South Africa offers. However, this was not the reason why I struggled to stop the tears from falling into my toasted chicken mayo sandwhich. I was sad for a different reason.

Every day I am reminded that even though I reside in the UK and hold a British passport, I am not a native-born Brit. Little reminders that are hidden in language, in humour, in parenting, at work, in social gatherings and even in the food we eat. Being back in South Africa however, made me realise that what used to be familiar, was no longer familiar at all. People changed, places changed, things moved and shifted as the time passed. I no longer felt as if I belonged there, either. There I sat in that coffee shop, in a place I had known all my life, feeling completely lost.

It’s been a few years since my coffee-shop-meltdown, but I have found myself in that space of feeling a little lost in a familiar setting. Not feeling at home in my home. Not feeling comfortable in my own skin. Perhaps it is because of being stuck in a familiar place, in unfamiliar circumstances. Locked down in what is familiar, but surrounded in uncertainty. It is easy to feel a little lost these days.

A few nights ago as I was seeking the Lord about the way forward with a new creative venture I am embarking on, I found this verse in the Amplified (classic edition):

For once you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord: walk as children of Light (lead the lives of those native-born to the Light).
Ephesians 5:8

The word, native-born, really stood out to me as I read that passage. And it got me thinking… wondering, if perhaps I have forgotten that there is more light in me than darkness. In fact, there cannot be darkness wherever there is light. Perhaps the darkness that I am feeling will disappear as soon as I hit the switch.

Can we ever feel like we belong when we live in a world where we are not native-born? We are Kingdom-born children of Light. Stepping into that true idenity might feel a little uncomfortable and unfamiliar. Letting go of the darkness, of what used to be familiar can take time. You might even experience a coffee-shop-meltdown from time to time. But dear friend, can I encourange you to keep moving forward? Keep embracing the right identity; the Light-identity. Whatever is trying to keep you in the dark will soon lose its grip as you surrender to the Light.

After all, that is who you TRULY are.

Make this your declaration today:

I am a child of the Light and I walk through this life as one that is native-born to the Light.


Heavenly Father,

Thank you that you are the Father of Light and within you there is no darkness, no shaddows, no deception. Let your Light fill us completely until every place where darkness is trying to hide will be exposed. Holy Spirit, remind us of who we are: that we are children of the Light. We do not have anything to fear, because we carry the Light of the world within us.

Let your Light shine brighter and brighter upon us and within us today and every day to come.

In Jesus Name.


Heart Print:

Today, I hear the Father say:

“Arise, my Bright One! Shine with the Light of my Spirit that is alive in you. There is no darkness that can overwhelm you when you embrace the Light within you. Allow Truth to settle on you until you feel my comfort surround you. Let Truth rise from within you until you feel my power surge through every fibre of your being. I AM alive in you. My Spirit and Truth lives in YOU. Togehter, we are an unstoppable creative force. Partner with me and drive out the darkness around you. You were made to shine, right where you are. Child of Light, shine in my Love for you. In all things. Always.” ❤

Winged Creatures

It’s been a busy start to the year. We have just had new carpets fitted and in the process, there has been a lot of moving, unpacking and sorting. My husband and I thought it might be a golden opportunity to sort through some of our clutter. As I dug through drawers, I came across one of my journals (circa 2012) and as I paged through the memories, I found this one that is well worth a share:

It’s Monday evening and Clinton is working. The house is peaceful and quiet. The little ones are fast asleep after a very busy day of playing in the park, building sandcastles, feeding ducks and covering themselves in muddy puddle water. They are out! It’s been a long time since it has been this quiet.

As I walked into our bedroom, on my way to get ready for an early night, my eye caught something dark and ominous on our lovely, cream bedcovers. My first reaction was not one of delight as I approached the dark grey, winged creature. A moth! A great, big, ugly moth!

Now, I don’t know how you feel about insects, but I am by no means a fan. In fact, I will do anything I possibly can, NOT to have to come into contact with one. Especially one that can take flight.

I knew that tonight would be a different night. The only thing that stood between me and my comfortable bed, was that big, ugly moth sitting right between the pillows. Unfortunatly, my kninght in shining armour was out doing a night shift at the Royal Preston, so there was only going to be one hero in this story and that was going to be me… or the moth.

Courageously I walked over to the bed and in a quick swoop, I picked up the nasty little thing. Using all my mental energy to NOT focus on the creepy, fluttering movements in my hand, I jumped towards the window, flung it open and shut within a record breaking quarter of a second. There it was… on the other side of the window. I could feel it glaring at me as it came to terms with the fact that it was not in my comfortable, warm bed anymore. It was outside. In the cold. Where it belongs!

I looked down at my hand and saw the mucky smudges my little enemy left behind on my hand. After I did my little dance of cringe-fit, I walked into the on-suite to wash my hands. This is when I heard the gentle tap of the Father on my shoulder. It was a teachable moment. This is what I heard Him say:

  • When a thought comes fluttering into your head, identify it. Is it a moth (full of darkness and filth)? Or is it a butterlfy (full of life, pure and good)? Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8 NIV
  • Deal with the thought immediately. Just like the action you took tonight, grab hold of that moth immediately and throw it out! It does not belong in your head. Deal with it as soon as you see it.
    We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
    2 Corintians 10:5 NIV
  • Just like the moth, bad thoughts may leave residue, so make sure to wash your hands with the Word.
    Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word (Ephesians 5:24-25), when we are stuck in negative thought-patterns , it may well be time to sit down with the word and allow the Holy Spirit to wash away that mothy-thinking-residue.

Reading these words in my journal reminded me of a truth that I desperately need at the minute. With all the negative news we are hearing each day, it has been difficult to keep my focus on what is true, pure, lovely and good. I realise that I have been leaving the window wide open for the moths to come in and make themselves comfortable. But it is time for them to go.

If it’s not a butterfly, it has to leave the building!

Make this your declaration:

I have the power and authority to take down every thought that is not lining up with God’s Word. Every day, I choose to fill my mind with thoughts of love, faith, peace and joy.


Heavenly Father,

Thank you for reminding us that we do not have to think whatever pops into our minds. You have given us the authority and the power to choose our thoughts. We choose to have thoughts that are pure, good, full of life and peace. Thank you Holy Spirit for making us sensitive to your Truth. Encourage us daily and remind us to think and speak thoughts of life.


Heart Print:

Today, I hear the Father say: “Brilliant Child! You are so wonderful. So precious in my sight. My plans for you will never change, they are always full of hope, peace and prosperity. They are to bless you and give you the desires of your heart. As you delight yourself in me, you open your heart to receive every promise that I have spoken over your life. Open your heart to my faithfulness. Open your heart to my relentless love for you. It will make your dreams come true. The dreams that I have given to you, even before you were born.” ❤


Many years ago, I learned that it was futile to set resolutions for the new year. I would always start my new year with a new diet and exercise plan, but two weeks into the new year you would find me sitting on the couch crying into my chocolate cake! Resolutions have never worked for me. Kudos to you if you can stick to yours.

One of the greatest revelations I have discovered is that I have access to a power greater than my self-effort. I learned that I don’t have to lean on my own ability to produce the abundant life of grace and peace that I long to experience. Everything I could ever desire in this life can be attained by one simple Word from God.

God’s Word creates the impossible.

For with God nothing is ever impossible and no word from God shall be without power or impossible of fulfillment.
Luke 1:37 AMPC

God’s Word always produces the desired outcome.

So shall My word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to Me void [without producing any effect, useless], but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.
Isaiah 55:11 AMPC

God’s Word can not be stopped.

Then said the Lord to me, You have seen well, for I am alert and active, watching over My word to perform it.
Jeremiah 1:12 AMPC

So I changed my strategy. Every year I swap my resolution for a Word from God. I take my journal and I sit in the presence of the Lord, expecting that He will give me a specific Word straight from His heart for the new year. I put that Word where I can see it. I read it. I think about it. I let it get into my heart until I am able to believe it.

Dear friend, what is your Word for 2021? Can I encourage you to quiet your heart and allow the Lord to give you fresh vision and hope. He has great plans for you. You were created for a purpose. One that is uniquely yours to fulfill. God hasn’t changed His mind about you, since the day He wove you together in your mother’s womb. He has placed you in this world for such a time as this. He wants to show you who you truly are and partner with you in the plans He designed for you, even before you were born.

Ask for your Word, He will gladly give it to you.

Make this your declaration:

God has great plans for me in 2021. I trust in His unfailing, powerful, creative Word. I believe that He will watch over His Word to perform it in my life.


Heavenly Father, thank you for your faithfulness. Thank you for giving us your Word. Thank you that you always make good on your promises. You watch over every Word to perform it. We know that we can put my trust in Your Word, for it never fails. It always accomplishes the goal it was intended for. Thank you that Your plans our lives are good. We are expecting wonderful things this year. We love you, Father. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Heart Print:

Today, I hear the Father say: “Awesome Child, it’s time to rise and shine. My glory light is shining on you and from within you. There is no darkness that can overcome you, for my Word is alive and active in you. Allow every promise I have made to you, to germinate and take root in the soil of your heart. It will produce a harvest for you that you will not be able to contain. A harvest so huge, it will feed every hungry heart you meet. For I have come for the hungry and thirsty. I have come that you may have life. Abundantly.” ❤

Check Your Word Processor

It was rather late last night when I sent out an email about the upcoming weekend intensive, Spirit, Soul & Body. In my eagerness to get to bed, I didn’t notice that the word “strengthened” was autocorrected… to stress! Let’s stress each other in truth and love? No! We don’t need any more stress after this year, do we?

First I was embarrassed 😳

Then I thought about this amazing analogy:
Your heart is a Word Processor too. The Word of God says that…
* Overwhelming victory is yours (Romans 8:37)
* No plague will come near you (Psalm 91:10)
* The joy of the Lord is your strength (Nehemiah 10:8)
* All your needs are met (Philippians 4:19)
* Nothing is impossible for the God you serve (Luke 1:37)

When you read those statements, how do you feel? Are you processing them with complete faith, joy and hope? Do you still BELIEVE that God is true to His Word? That He will make good on His promises? Or have you allowed the circumstances of 2020 override the way you are processing truth?

What we believe in our hearts will determine what we experience in this life. It’s time to check your Word Processor:

So above all, guard the affections of your heart, for they affect all that you are. Pay attention to the welfare of your innermost being, for from there flows the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23 TPT

This is why we need to recalibrate our hearts! Don’t go into 2021 with “stress” when “strength” is your portion.

Recalibration is necessary on a regular basis, not just once a year. That’s why we are offering unlimited, lifetime access to the materials of the Spirit, Soul & Body Weekend Intensive.

No Stress.

Only Strength.

Make this your declaration today:

My heart is steadfast in the truth of who I am and Who I belong to. I will not allow circumstances to influence what I believe about God or about myself.


Heavenly Father, thank you for being the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Strengthen me with your joy. Let your truth override every lie that circumstances have written on my heart. I believe I am who YOU say I am. I put my trust in your faithfulness and unfailing love. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Heart Print:

Today, I hear the Father say: “Dear One. Be strong and of good courage. Haven’t I promised to work all things together for your good? You are never out of my line of sight or beyond my grasp, for you are my most treasured possession. Nothing can seperate you from my presence. Nothing can seperate you from my heart. Rest in my unfailing love and know: I am with you always.” ❤

Here is a video where I share the Word the Lord gave me for 2021.

May you be strengthened and encouraged.
If you need to connect and walk together, I would love to hear from you.

Have a wonderful day and be blessed!
Meliza ❤

The Right Shoes

On Saturday morning I discovered that when you walk through muddy trails, you really do need to wear the right shoes.

Messy paths require proper footwear

It was such a beautiful day and I was in much need of an escape from the mental overload I was experiencing. Overcome by every bullet point on a to do list that just seem to grow ever longer and longer, I put on my trainers and set off on a little nature trail near our house. It was a spectacularly beautiful day. The sun was shining brightly through tree branches that had already shed most of their autumnal glory. It was cold, but crisp and bright. Perfect for a walk… until I reached a certain point where there was just no dry place to put my feet.

My trainers, socks and tracky-bottoms were covered in mud by the time I returned home. I should have worn my wellington boots. I should have known better, considering all the years of hearing Peppa Pig’s advice to my kids: “If you want to jump in muddy puddles, you must wear your boots!”

Whilst trudging through the mud on my way back home, I was reminded of the passage in Ephesians 6, reminding us to put on our spiritual armour. I am well practiced in the helmet of salvation, the breastplate of righteousness and the sword of the Spirit, but I often skim over the shoes; writing it off as simple readiness to share your faith with those who need to hear the message of the gospel.

However, there was something that compelled me to have a deeper look. As I took another glimpse at this verse, I realised that the one who needed to hear the gospel of peace the most that day, was me!

I looked at many different translations of Ephesians 6:15, but this is the one that stood out to me:

For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared.
Ephesians 6:15 NLT

Put on peace.

We are told to put on peace. Peace that will protect our feet. Imagine running around a battlefield without any shoes!

Peace needs to be the position in which we stand, walk and run in life. I had become so busy with doing stuff (even doing stuff for God) and somehow, I had lost my peace. I was wearing the shoes of “overwhelm” not the shoes of peace. I was wearing the wrong shoes and it didn’t help when the path got a little muddy.

Peace that comes from the Good News.

This year, I think we can agree, has not been a year of particularly good news (in the natural). Perhaps your peace-walk has been challenged too. Perhaps like me, you are looking down at your feet and realising that you are wearing the wrong shoes for the journey. Maybe it’s time to go back to the Good News. The good news is that you are in perfect standing with God. That He is completely at peace with you. That HIS Peace is YOUR portion; your inheritance. That HIS Peace is not circumstantial, but lasting.

The original meaning of the word ‘peace’ (Strong-Lite: G1515) includes “security, safety, prosperity, felicity (because peace and harmony make and keep things safe and prosperous)”. We can walk in peace, regardless of our circumstances, when we know where we stand with God. He is our security, safety, prosperity, peace and harmony. We need to now just know this, but stand in it. Walk in it. Why?

…so that you will be fully prepared.

Nothing could have prepared us for the events of 2020 and with everything this year has thrown at us, it is even more difficult to prepare for the coming year. Yet, in all the uncertainty we can have confidence that no matter how muddy the path before us, we are clothed and equipped to walk through it. In peace.

When we walk in God, our Peace we are prepared for anything.

Make this your declaraion:

I am in right standing with God who is my security, safety, prosperity, peace and harmony. I walk in perfect peace, no matter what the day brings.


Heavenly Father,
We thank You that our peace is securely found in you. You keep us in the very center of your heart, where no evil can befall us and no plague can come near us. You are the Life that gives us life. You are that Light that destroys the darkness. You are our Peace. Holy Spirit remind us, that we are secure and safe in the heart of the Father.
In Jesus Name,

Heart Print:

Today, I hear the Father say: “Brave One. Let joy rise within you, even in the midst of trouble. For you are never on the losing side. You are in me, therefore you are victorious. Always. You are in me, therefore you are secure. Always. I surround you with my Peace. Wherever you put your feet, there I am also. Where you go, Peace goes. To step out of Peace is to step out of me: it is impossible. So open your eyes and see, there is no trouble that can touch you. I AM your Peace.” ❤