It has taken me such a long time to take the leap and start this blog. Thinking of putting any of my thoughts “out there”, in the blogging-verse, felt way out of my comfort zone.
So many insecurities were holding me back.
Is this the right time?
What if it is too personal?
What if nobody likes it?
What if I’m not doing it with the right motives?
What if it’s full of mistakes?
I mean, there are so many pitfalls! Grammar, spelling, theology, references… (I often revisit a memory where I, so passionately shared at our weekly connect group, about how Paul got out of the boat and walked on water! Cringe! I also shared with a friend about Elijah’s valley of dry bones! Double cringe!)
Why is it that we are so intimdated by the opinions of others, that we feel the pressure to hide the expressions of our heart?
It doesn’t have to be perfect.
One morning, in my quiet time, I had a picture as I was praying. I saw myself as a little girl, lying at the feet of Jesus. Spread out on the floor in front of me, was a toddler’s crafting paradise! Crayons. Cardboard in all the colours of the rainbow. Glitter. Glue. Fake gems. Pom-poms. Stickers.
I was making paper crowns. I saw myself proudly presenting each crown to Jesus. He delighted in showing off the magnificent work of art I produced for him. The joy I saw in his eyes was so precious to me, that I couldn’t wait to make another one.
In that moment, I sensed the Holy Spirit saying, that each of my blogs is like a paper crown. A beautiful, magnificent work of art, to bless the One who loves me. The One who loves to see me enjoy what he has given me.
It doesn’t matter what people think about my paper crowns, because Jesus loves them. And he wears them proudly.
A record of his kindness.
My prayer is that my words will always carry a record of his kindness. That every heart that reads these posts will experience the amazing love of God, knowing that he not only loves you just the way you are, but he also delights in everything you do for him.
I have felt a tug towards writing for a long time, but only found the courage to commit to it, in the last couple of years. What could I possibly write, that hasn’t been written before?
Then it dawned on me that my writing is my worship. I am not trying to produce new revelation per say, but I’m leaving a heartprint: impressions of God’s heart towards his beautiful children.
As I was driving in my car, I caught a snippet of a story on UCB2, that ended with this quote:
“Faithful obedience leads to an echo in eternity.”
I don’t know who said it, or the story behind it, but I love this quote! I want more than anything, to be faithful to release what God has put in my hands. I want to leave an echo of his Love in eternity.
What is stopping you?
Is it time to let go of all the self-doubt, or fear of selfish ambition?
You know, I often feared that I was doing things from the wrong motive. But I am not trying to please a crowd, there is only One audience member I want to impress with my paper crowns.
If God has given you an idea for a blog, or a painting, or a poem, or a book, or a play, or a song… or for something we haven’t even seen or heard yet, it’s time to go out there and sing, dance, act, write, paint!
Now is the time to release what God has put in your hands. Get your glitter out and make some paper crowns!
Today I hear the Father delight: “Beautiful Child! I adore you with all my heart. You have my full attention as you joyfully express your worship and love for me. As you bless me with your work, I will bless the works of your hands.” ❤